Wow! I never thought that this year would be ending so soon. It is definitely true when they say your senior year flies by. It’s literally almost over.
In my district, we go by 6 weeks. Right now we are in the 6 sixth weeks. I think around week 1 or 2. This year, for me, has had multiple ups and downs, but it’s honestly been great.
I never planned on moving back to Texas, but you know I really don’t regret it. Everything that I thought would never happen, HAPPENED!
I recently lost my Great Grandmother who literally meant the world to me. I looked up to her because she’s the woman that I hoped to be as I grew older. She was and still is an amazing woman and will have an everlasting effect on my life.
I have played the last soccer season of my high school career and it was such a bittersweet experience. I didn’t go the way we planned, but in the end, I gained an amazing group of friends. Being I’m one of the only seniors on the team they’re somewhat like my little sisters. I know that I have to set an example and prepare them for the future, but I just love each and every one of them unconditionally.
I definitely didn’t plan nor expect my friendships to end up the way that they did, but people change and that’s just something that you have to accept. The people that I befriended my freshman year aren’t the ones who I know now, but even I’m not the girl I was my freshman year. Being that I transferred to California for the next two years I just wasn’t around, but you would expect them to at least say “hi”. Instead, they act like they don’t even remember who I am. Yet that could be a possibility.
The one friendship I solely relied on was the one I had with my best friend. I never expected our relationship to go south. It’s not that it’s a bad relationship it’s just not the same. At all. She’s not the same and neither am I, but I tried my hardest to keep in touch with her. The more time I spent away from her I could tell that we weren’t going to be close anymore. So, you could imagine my shock when my mom said that we were going to be moving back to Texas. I was upset because I absolutely did NOT want to move back because the town I live in is just boring. At the time there was nothing to do, but now that I have interests there are so many possibilities. So when I finally received a text back and told her I was coming back she was just so excited. On the first day she told me that she had a boyfriend and I was happy for her, but he was a freshman or sophomore and she is a senior I just didn’t see a good ending, but again everyone is different.
Well anyway as soon as I saw her and actually talked I just knew that we are not going to be as close as we were. she started keeping secrets and I just gradually distanced myself. It’s not like I could actually talk to her because every time that I did, her boyfriend would just cut me off and talk to her the rest of the time we had.
Now I’m still distancing myself because it just seems like she doesn’t care. It’s annoying when I see her complain because if she would’ve listened to what I was trying to tell her then she wouldn’t be annoyed by certain people. I personally feel like her boyfriend is driving a wedge in between us and she’s so caught up in everything that she doesn’t even notice.
I feel great about where I’m at right now. In the beginning, I was just so worried about having the same friends that I had my freshman year, but as time went on I realized that if they didn’t want to be my friend then I shouldn’t force it. There was so much that went on that I don’t even want to get into it because it’s just too much. I’m impatiently waiting for prom which is next weekend and I’m so excited! It’s all just so surreal. No, I don’t have a date, but I’m honestly not worried about not having one because my dress is just incredible. I am not in a relationship nor am I bothered by it because before she died she told me that I wasn’t going to get into a relationship until I go to college. She is right. Ever since she said that I have had THE WORST luck with guys, but it’s amusing.